When you don't realise what is happening and a doctor tells you that you have stress it really is the worst thing that could happen.

depression follows a pattern but does affect people in many ways. but my friends remember this it is a time for finding out who your true friends are!

I over the course of many years have had things happen with no warning. I remember in 1994 getting off a bus i had just finished work i was happy no problems but something just wasn't right. I experienced a adrenalin rush that nearly blew my head off. I got home i couldn't make out what was wrong i couldn't leave my room my head was spinning i couldn't sleep or concentrate i couldn't work what the hell was happening to me.

I had problems with making my mind up i was impulsive angry sad happy and then sad again. Words became hurtfull i was more aware of what people were or in the paronoid stage were not saying.

In the manic stage i could survive on a packet of crisps a day i was going a hundred miles an hour and dragging everyone with me then when i hit rock bottom the people who had seen the manic side look at you as if a tornado had ripped through them.

There is not enough understanding of this illness Doctors tend to treat you as a statistic rather than a person and that can lead to you being given the wrong drugs that could make you feel worse.

The worst thing is trying to find someone who will understand